May 19, 2016 by

“An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth, and whispered as she closed the book, “too beautiful for earth.”
~ Author unknown



Why? When people talk about the “WHY” – I guess I immediately think about “Discovering Your WHY” – your true, authentic self as I have helped many of you to understand your WHY. But, we all know there is another Why…one that we hear endlessly if we have a toddler or a young child. Why is the sky blue? Why do I have to have a bedtime? Why do bad things happen? The unknowns…always haunt us…always looking for an answer…Why?

Sometimes the Why concerns a tragedy, a loss that rips us to the soul. Why?

I would like to share such a story, written by my good friend and fellow Life Coach, Dr. Janet Bieschke. Janet’s story is one of love, loss and important memories.

Our four-year-old grandson came bursting through the elevator doors and as he saw me standing in the room, he excitedly announced, “Gramma, my baby brother is being born right now!” His face was aglow. For the past months, he had been in the conditioning mode to accept a baby brother into his life. Less alone-time with Mommy, more single outings with daddy to provide Mommy-baby times, and knowing he would need to share his toys. He was no less than a bundle of joy as excitement oozed out from every cell of his being and his beaming face proved it.

I quickly glanced over at my son for his reaction. My heart stopped beating for just a moment as I also awaited his reaction to his little guy’s excited announcement.

As my son bent to his son’s level and explained baby Spencer was born, he died, and went to heaven. “Why?” Jesus wanted him to come right away. “But Why?” Remember your grandpa who went to heaven? Spencer will be with him now. “But Why?”

But why indeed? It was 8 months into the pregnancy and only the previous day, Mommy had a check up to hear that everything was fine, he has a strong heartbeat, and he was kicking away during the day. It happened so fast and the doctor was initially concerned that Mommy may not make it either. But Why?

Spencer had a headful of curly red hair—just like our daughter-in-law. At 8 months, he looked fully developed. His eyelashes were formed; his tiny fingers were perfect. He was perfect. But he wasn’t. Why indeed? My son and daughter-in-law discussed the what-if litany of questions as they searched for meaning, understanding, and something to lessen their pain. What if he could have lived a couple of days, months, or years so they would have had a chance to know him, what if, what if, and what if. Why?

It was April. It was the day of the planned baby shower. It was nothing but sorrow, pain, comforting, questioning, and hurting.

During the summer, while in the vehicle with his mommy, the 4-year old made a statement to her that came from out of the blue. “Mommy, I know why Spencer died.” Cautiously, Mommy asked “Why?” and he responded “because you and daddy have me. And some parents don’t have any baby, so God gave him to them.” From the mouth of a 4-year-old! What do you say? He obviously had pondered his own ‘Why?’ questions even at his tender young age.

We look to make sense; we look for the message in the mess. We want answers. We create stories to hold the hurt, to create the sense, to find a way to make the memory important. His tiny short life mattered. He touched lives. He changed lives. He can still bring tears. Especially during each April, when the memory is so strong that we are all in that hospital room hearing the excitement of a 4-year-old amidst the agony and pain of the parents and everyone who loved them and wanted to take the pain away—but couldn’t. It’s been 19 years. It still hurts. He was Spencer Thomas. He still is.

This story is not all sad. 5 children bless their lives today. But somewhere in her heart, little silent Spencer will continue to find his way to say Love never ends and remind us all that a parent’s love is forever.

Not all stories are happy, but all stories hold a piece of life, of the memory, of the meaning we create; and through sharing our stories, we can find resiliency and maybe eventually find a degree of peace.

Thank you Janet, for sharing your inspiring and heartfelt story.

As you can see, Janet is quite a moving storyteller. In addition to her coaching, Janet offers a wonderful service to hospice patients “Capturing Life Stories”. This professional service provides all the tools and techniques to capture and record the patient’s life story in a beautiful and elegant manner, providing an amazing gift for loved ones. Her website is DrJanetb.com/

“One day a son asked his father, “Why is it always the best people who die?” The father answered, “Son, if you are in a meadow picking flowers, which ones would you pick? The worst or the best?” ~ Author unknown


I live and love each day to the fullest.

Although there may not always be answers, I trust God and the universe to show me the way.

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